Bye Bye Baby

I have always said I want to experience everything in life at least once. I never thought that it would include an abortion. On March 29, 2010, I have my first abortion, and hope it will be the last. My baby was 4 weeks old.

It was done at Roopi’s Medical Center. The procedure was relatively fast and simple. I was asked to eat 2 pills and allow another 2 to dissolve under my tongue. The pills were to dilate the cervix. After about an hour later, the transferred me into the operation theatre, administered anesthesia and I was out. I don’t know what happened after that. I guess they just suck the living daylights out of the poor thing, literally.

Physically, I felt fine after the operation. Just some bleeding and some rawness in the vagina.

Emotionally, I am almost fine. The things I have heard about abortion is right. This decision will haunt me forever. I will always live with the memory of having had a baby in me, and having made the decision not to have it. But I know I can’t. I am too selfish to make the change in my life.