Self-sufficiency vs. loneliness

I always felt that being overly dependent and having to beg for help, a sign of weakness. I didn't want to be weak. Neither did I want to be a "velcro", like one of those girls who cling on to a man for financial support, for company and more. And those poor sad souls who require the approval of someone else to justify their existence on this earth.

So all my life, I have strived to be independent, to not depend on others. I make myself do everything a woman can do, and a man can do (most things, that is). Drilling, plumbing, climbing - I push myself to do it all myself.

A man in my life merely has to love me. There's no need to provide for me, buy stuff for me or do any DIY for me.

But I have come to realize that it doesn't quite work out that way. With independence comes loneliness. The fact that you don't need help intimidates others, especially men.

I really don't get this. They detest women who "miao" over them like a horny kitten, but also detest those who don't. Haiyo, very hard to please leh. Since when did being a woman became so difficult?

I always tell my girlfriends, the famous Singaporean 5Cs - I have them all - condo, car, credit card(s), club membership, cash (but could still do with more). The 1C that's missing.....Co*k.

So now, I am all confused. Don't know what to be.